2009 aims~

with a blink of an eye...is almost de end of 2008...overall...all i can say is not goin very well for me...hmmm...had alot of fun with frens n new frens....too many stuff have happen till i dun even kno wer to start...ahaha... 2009 is coming...hav set few aims for myself...

1) get a tattoo on my left back... (LXVII) <-- tats wat i m gonna put...
2) work harder on my study... hope so.... xD
3) if study part goes well...hope to be able to fly to perth by july...
4) improve my chinese...so i dun owes hav to find a translator wen go singin... *paiseh*
5) stop playin so much n try to start workin harder on my love life... ^^
6) hope to meet more new frens tat can be trusted

guess tats all....hai~~ jus came bak limteh with frens so fast bored agen... even wanna write a blog also dunno wat to write....zzz.... n mostly write also bout my love life....

sumtimes...i ask myself...getting to kno her...whether isit happiness is just around de corner le...or is it jus another hallucination tat i cant seem to realise..... sigh~~ jus cant seem to let go of myself from dis feeling... wake up lo lucas...

6th December~

HMMMMM...jus bak from my kk trips....damn....tiring but fun...arrive miri den straight drove bak to brunei....went to find frens at nite....n wat a welcome dey giv me.....thxs guys.... den we went miri de next day agen omg.....super tired ar.... ><>
was suppose to meet her up as well....is been like so long oledi i hav been longin to c her...so was quite happy but somehow nervous....XD...den she call n i went down to fetch her....after went down...didn saw her n went i turn arnd..she was behind me....*melt*
brought her up n i acc her till her frens arrive...after her frens arrive...i start partyin with my frens....1hr later....started to miss her....ahaha...shit eh....so i texted her up ask her come out n find me....xP den wen we were about to go into balcony karaoke room....it was vry crowded so i held her hand....sigh~~ i felt abit of resistance from her while holdin her hands.... *ouch* didn wana say much or show any emotions so jus continue tokin to her...tryin to make her smile was de only motive i hav tat nite....
went out to find my frens agen n started drinkin....after her frens left, she join me my frens... after drinkin quite heavily...my stomach felt vry uncomfortable so i ask her to acc me go down...den my frens all came down.....vomitted in front of me...LOL!!!!!
i folo her car n we were suppose to go for supper but smth stupid happen....=.=
my frens got lose n fell asleep in my car n in de end....dey got rob n so is my stuff in my car...T.T !@#$%^&*()_+!!!
i keep wantin to vomit cuz...ehehe... she step on de brake so strongly... so i ask her to let me drive instead....hopin to be able to find my frens....round de whole place cudn find dem...n my gastric is killin me so i ask her to go home first n ask my frens to sent me home instead....once reach home.....omg!!! for de second time in my life...i fainted... de pain is jus too painful....arnd 8am a fren of mine phone me n woke me up...den i notice my frens were not back yet so i quickly call dem agen.....den FINALLY dey pik up...n tel me dey r on their way home....
wuwuwuwuwu....my fren vomitted on my cushion....KNN!!!!! argh!!!!! such an unlucky day....
went bak brunei n got laugh by all my frens....shit.... >.<>
but in de end...once i reach home n lie down on my bed...i was stil able to hav a smile on my face thinkin in my head *ta de wei xiao...tai mei li le* zZzZzZz~

Tired~

hmMmMm~ exams comin closer n closer...started studyin today for jus 1 hour n i stop eheh... den during evening time wen down town with frens n watch a movie call eagle eyes....overall...de movie was good... hav a few laughs on de way bak in my fren car...reach home n once i open my front door... i dunno y but i feel so...moody... de hse seems so quiet... sis at kl with bf n her frens as well enjoyin.... *rmb to get me smth o jiey xD*
went to bought beers to drink...came bak home n sat at my balcony n drink alone... n to tell de truth...i dun reli like drinkin... but i guess tats all i can do in a way to let me stop thinkin bad memories n many more...
sigh~ suddenly start tinkin bak de times wen i hav a sum1 special der for me.... all de times u spent with de special person to u reli feels good... de feelins somehow brings a smile on my face but at de same time...its killin me inside.... its been a long time le....vry long time.... frens arnd me says is bcuz i didn go n look for it.....tats not true guys....
so funny but sumtimes i even wish tat sum1 wud jus text me up n say she miss me... heh... xiang tai duo le...
dough frens r owes der for me... but sumtimes wen is comin to an end of de day...u reli jus wud wan de last person u c or talk to wud be de person u love.... tellin her u love her n she wud say de same thing bak.... sum1 to wipe away ur tears n tell u everything will be okay n tat she will be der for u...
...mayb is jus me....either my faith is not here yet or i m jus fallin apart le.... dun reli kno how to describe my feelins nemore... hmmmmmm~
All i can do for now is just gonna let it be... hav fun with my life n let love come find its own way into it... tired~

a pic i found~ love it~

Nothing Much~

bored until i hav to force myself to write smth here...today finally pass up my marketing plan le... kna de lecturer scold jus bcuz i call her "ermm excuse me madam" she reply.... "wat madam madam??!!" i was like stun n errrr for 3 sec n inside my head i was tinkin "did i say netin wrong?? o.O" den i call her name.... i didn mean tat shes old le @.@.... den she call me to her office...wen i reach der n pass it up to her...her voice became so soft n speak nicely with me..i was like " =.=" hehe.....neway~~ den at nite..a fren invited me to go starbucks with him n another two frens.... !@#$%^&*(()_+ taste so baaaddd de drink.... den we jus chill outside starbuck....have some guys talk....sit der for bout 1hr plus den we went home.... till now my stomach stil feel so weird~~ >< yorr...gotta get myself well for dis friday n sat... two frens brithday....omg... LENGLUI!!! FANG GUO WO!!! T.T a close fren of mine hu owes bcome berserk wen shes high...owes get bruises bak wen out drinkin with her....scary but fun to hang out with =)....hmmm lately nutin much is goin on....no arguments in de family....friendship atm duin good too.... lovelife??? lets jus say.... "singin~ wo wang le zhe me shuo...wo ai ni"

de nites has been so quiet ever since we became like stranger to one another...yeah~~
neway...i m jus gonna let everthing go with de flow le...dun wana tink much nemore... PeAce
LuCaS67 wAz heRe~~ ;)

Happy Sunday

went down town last nite with my sis n her bf to celebrate her birthday..hehe happy birthday sis ^^..neway after finish eating...my sis n her bf go their own ways i go my own n tats wen i saw dis fossil watch....OMG!!!! love at first sight....lol.... den later tat nite went thai bar with my bros they all...*boom boom shake shake* hahaha...it was a fun nite.... den i went find my other frens...reach home arnd 4plus....slept at 6 in de morning...@.@ den somehow i kept tinkin bout de watch....i jus cudn resist it argh~~....so jus now flew down to town n purchase it...ahahah *sot* no regrets at all....... wakaka xD...i guess tats all for now... finally smth tat cheer me up.... *PeAce*

21 things girls don't realize about guys

1) Guys may be flirting around all day, but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about....

2) Guys are more emotional than you think, if they loved you at one point, it'll take them a lot longer then you think to let you go, and it hurts every second that they try. T.T

3) Guys go crazy over a girl's smile ^^

4) A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to.

5) Giving a guy a hanging message like 'You know what?..uh...nevermind..' would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out. >.<

6) If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.

7) A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.

8) GUYS LOVE YOU MORE THEN YOU LOVE THEM!!!

9) Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. They rarely use beautiful or gorgeous. If a guy uses that, he loves you or likes you a whole heck of a lot.

10)If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl.

11)If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and he is really thinking about something

12) When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is
Guys rarely say that

13)When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, 'Please come and listen to me

14)If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.

15) When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking
something.

16) Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them

17)A guy would give the world to be able to read a girl's mind for a day.

18)No guy can handle all his problems on his own.
He's just too stubborn to admit it

19)NOT ALL GUYS ARE RUDE!!!
Just because ONE is RUDE doesnt mean he represents ALL of them >=(

20)WHEN A GUY SACRIFICES HIS SLEEP AND HEALTH JUST TO TALK TO YOU, HE REALLY LIKES YOU AND WANTS TO BE WITH YOU AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE

21)Even if you dump a guy months ago and he loved you he probably still does and if he had one wish it would be you to come back into his life

A fren of mine sent to me n all i can say...is SOOO TRUE... >.<
SigH~

A sONg tAt ReMindS mE of U~

BaBy~想放棄卻不能甘心放手　留妳在夢中卻苦痛了我

等著傷心不如學會承受　反正妳不會是我的

想放棄卻不能甘心放手　留妳在夢中卻苦痛了我

等妳想起不如先忘記妳　反正離開妳的人是我~ 

All de Best to U~

Really Miss You~

hmmm 9-10-2008...dad's birthday jus pass.....it's rainin here heavily...internet aint as fast as it used to be...so went to look for a close fren richard also one of my closest bro...drive to his place took me arnd 10 min..rainin heavily so jus wana enjoy listenin to music in my car... at his place...we jus chill n catch back on the things we miss....he share with me his trip to singapore n kl....he even bought me an espirit shirt..ahah thxs bro...^^ den his house got ps2 so i play awhile..bleach hahaha nice!!! den after a while we went out to have our "guys talk" agen... after 15 min laters...eeek...stomachpain...><>
it was stil rainin....on9 also nutin to do n recently dun reli like to chat too much on msn.....after a while....i called...but y it seems like i am tokin to myself..de sound, de voice comin from de other side seems so cold...de only sound i can hear is jus de hard breathing sound comin from within me....i hung up..... took my fone n went to my balcony..listening to a song call "xiang ting de hua"...tryin to relax myself from all de sadness i m facing lately....sigh~~ hav been tinkin alot alot alot...not to mention crying also......i jus reli bcome vry fragile wen it comes to u.... no1 likes cryin...man i HATE cryin....but it jus falls out from my eyes everytime wen i tink about tat we cant be wat we used to be... de gigglin, de laughin, de sweet talkin... is jus all not der nemore....

i am not tryin to be selfish...i am not tryin to control u...i am not tryin to force u... sigh~ y cAn't u C taT onlY u CaN tAke All dIs aWay~

****我真的好想你~

Wait For You~

I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I'm missing you and I'm wishing you would come back through my door
Oooooo
Why did you have to go?
You could have let me know
So now I'm all alone,

Girl you could have stayed but you wouldn't give me a chance
With you not around it's a little bit more than I can stand
Oooooo
And all my tears they
Keep running down my face
Why did you turn away?

[Bridge]

So why does your pride make you run and hide?
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie
What you keep inside
This is not how you want it to be

[Chorus]

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else I can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do
I'll wait for you

[Verse 2]

Been a long time since you called me
(How could you forget about me)
You gotta be feeling crazy (crazy)
Oooooo
How can you walk away,
Everything stays the same
I just can't do it baby
What will it take to make you come back
Girl I told you what it is and it just ain't like that
Oooooo
Why can't you look at me
You're still in love with me
Don't leave me crying.

[Bridge]

Baby why can't we just
Just start over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance
I can love you right
But you're telling me it won't be enough

[Chorus]

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else I can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do
I'll wait for you

[Bridge]

So why does your pride make you run & hide
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie
What you're keeping inside
That is not how you want it to be

Baby I will wait for you
Oooooo
Baby I will wait for you
If it's the last thing I do

Baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else I can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do, I'll wait for you

I'll Be Waiting.

Thank You~

used to have dis warm feeling inside me...it keeps me strong and comfortable...a feeling i search and desire for so long...a feeling i try so hard to hold on and keep it within me... a feeling i will never wanna share with some1 else.....n most importantly......a feeling tat makes me feel that i am a somebody...
i try to hold on to it...but it was not der...it was never der...

After tat nite, i sat alone in my room.. the only thing i felt last was just the sound of my heart crying... nothing else...

i cry silently,
i cry inside of me,
i cry hopelessly,
bcuz i know...i wil never be able to breathe this feeling agen~
Thank You for everything~